Adverse Quotient: Blessing or bane?

I am little weeble
Short and round
Here is my head
Here is my bottom
When you hit me real hard
See me fall
Then you see me come right back up!
(sing to the tune of “I’m a little teapot” )

You have no idea where I am not, you have no idea what I am going through now. But you should be able to tell…I am no pushover. And I meant that literally.

I’m back on my feet now, with new scars both bleeding and healing. And my thirst for revenge is really really strong.

Suicide may not have anything to do with wish to die

I lost something precious. And it wasn’t till I was hit by lower tummy cramps that I realized that I have not moved from my sitting position for more than 24 hours. And I wouldn’t eat or drink, but when I did I wolf down everything in sight as if I am trying to choke myself to oblivion.

A weak light still shines on in my otherwise shutdown brain that tells me that I am trying to kill myself. I am not arguing with that, I know I am.

But let’s not try to get ahead of yourself. I am not attempting suicide, I have no wish to end my life right now. (The thought sure resides in my head, whether it will be carried out is a question of if the time is ripe and the time is not now.)

Yet while my head and heart is clearly not anywhere near the call of death, my body had undergone a total shutdown and no longer wishes to move even though waves of painful cramps kept washing over my immobile body.

Before I forget….I would like to express my heartfelt gratitude to all the people who populated Youtube…..those clips distracted me as I sat here through the night and day, and to one of my dearest friend who battled severe body pain to stay with me online for more than 10 hours. I will always be grateful that she is only an email away, and thankful that we have Vzones which served as a graphical platform for her to console me with realtime gestures.

Would you consider a japanese monk for a husband?

I’m not kidding.

The average japanese man is struggling to find a mate for his roost, the average monk is struggling just as well and they have stopped relying on prayers but rather on solid actions.

Monks place their faith in matchmaking to find wives

Though the idea may strike any of us as funny, the reasons japanese women marry monks are very practical, I assure you. The level of practicality may even convince you that it really isn’t so crazy an idea after all.

I just want to ramble

I am sitting here hard at work(?) with a huge sinus flu wrecking havoc in my head. I don’t really care if I am rambling, I want to do it so you will just have to sit through it.

Be grateful, I haven’t taken any cold medicine yet so you do not have to deal with a crazier me than now. Hehe…

I have taken up taiko lessons since last week. The last lesson was the most enjoyable 1.5hours of full body workout, and I am sure I am going to enjoy myself during my future lessons as my technique improves. I got the beat, I just need to make sure my brain, left hand and right hand coordinates

Now as I am sitting here reminiscing, I laugh at how awkward I felt when I first walked into the room full of strangers. But everyone is very nice, and everyone being japanese or madly in love with japanese culture, I do not feel that I was judged by anyone there. I believe I was the only critic in the room, god….the reflection in the mirror shows someone in bad physical shape!!

I think I have fallen in love again, sigh… …

This is him 
Cho Kyuhyun
Isn’t he just dreamy? (It’s a rhetorical question)

He was a Mathematics Olympian in college too….sigh….what can be sexier than a hunk with serious brains?
And he is an “evil” lad who is always pulling pranks but who can stay upset with him when he turns those shy eyes at you?
Want to know more about him? Check him out here

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Kyuhyun

Wanna see him in action?
Be warned, he’s smokin’ hot in here